Hello everyone. I'm new here. I've read many stories from different people about how they came to this fetish, and I won't say that mine will be unique. But my problem is that I just can't fully surrender to it because of my phobia. The contrast is so strong that it makes me feel terrible. Overall, I've always been an anxious person with a lot of phobias, and I've had a fear of balloons since childhood. And suddenly, in my teenage years, I realized that besides the fact that balloons terrify me, they also arouse me terribly.
I kept this fear inside me for a very long time, not telling anyone about it because I'm not inclined to trust people. One day I told my friend about my phobia, but he found it amusing, so at our next meeting, he suggested to our friends to "joke" about me in one of the most horrifically mocking ways possible. Since then, it seems like my phobia has only grown stronger, but the fetish hasn't gone anywhere. I still enjoy watching some videos with balloons, etc., but it all feels like it's too much on the edge. I feel like I can't cope with this fear alone, and I need help. Even now, I'm terribly ashamed and afraid to write about it here, asking for advice or something else. Perhaps someone has been in a similar situation and can share their experience. And also forgive me for taking up your time.
I kept this fear inside me for a very long time, not telling anyone about it because I'm not inclined to trust people. One day I told my friend about my phobia, but he found it amusing, so at our next meeting, he suggested to our friends to "joke" about me in one of the most horrifically mocking ways possible. Since then, it seems like my phobia has only grown stronger, but the fetish hasn't gone anywhere. I still enjoy watching some videos with balloons, etc., but it all feels like it's too much on the edge. I feel like I can't cope with this fear alone, and I need help. Even now, I'm terribly ashamed and afraid to write about it here, asking for advice or something else. Perhaps someone has been in a similar situation and can share their experience. And also forgive me for taking up your time.
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