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  • bloonprincess
    Balloon Cuddler
    • Oct 2023
    • 51

    #16
    Ever since I was a little kid I basically never wanted to be seen near balloons. Whenever someone would offer me one I would insistently refuse. Everyone always thought that was odd bahavior for a kid lol. It wasn't because I was scared of them popping, I just felt weird around them.

    When I go to a store to buy some, I always get this fear, like everyone can just smell it on me. Like they just know how much of a freak I am. Which is ridiculous of course, I just look like an adult buying balloons for a party or something. But that's why I try not to go to Party City too often. I don't want the workers to start recognizing me hehe 😋

    Anyway, over the past year I have basically been on a personal mission to remove just about all of my shame. I've become way more open about myself. My gf and some of my friends even know about my fetish and are all super cool about it! I kinda wanna ask my gf to get me a cute balloon for my upcoming birthday, it'd mean a lot to me hehe 💙

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    • UKPOPPER
      Senior Member
      • Feb 2023
      • 187

      #17
      I usually combine buying balloons with buying a birthday card or with my groceries so it's just another item in the mix - or self-service tills to avoid the quizzical eye of the cashier. I remember buying balloons at a newsagent when I was younger and the cashier asked if I was having a party, which seems like a fair and obvious question but I never returned to that shop again. 🤣🎈
      Just one more puff...🎈

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      • Kitten
        Senior Member
        • Jul 2023
        • 170

        #18
        Originally posted by bloonprincess
        Ever since I was a little kid I basically never wanted to be seen near balloons. Whenever someone would offer me one I would insistently refuse. Everyone always thought that was odd bahavior for a kid lol. It wasn't because I was scared of them popping, I just felt weird around them.

        When I go to a store to buy some, I always get this fear, like everyone can just smell it on me. Like they just know how much of a freak I am. Which is ridiculous of course, I just look like an adult buying balloons for a party or something. But that's why I try not to go to Party City too often. I don't want the workers to start recognizing me hehe 😋

        Anyway, over the past year I have basically been on a personal mission to remove just about all of my shame. I've become way more open about myself. My gf and some of my friends even know about my fetish and are all super cool about it! I kinda wanna ask my gf to get me a cute balloon for my upcoming birthday, it'd mean a lot to me hehe 💙

        I've been doing something similar, but a little more extreme. Letting friends know was definitely the hardest part. I'm lucky that I've got kink friendly people I know, but as it's an unusual fetish, it's always a bit nerve wracking. I've only been met with curiosity so far. I'm so glad I've opened up about it. It makes everything so much easier. Having to hide it sucked.

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        • bloonprincess
          Balloon Cuddler
          • Oct 2023
          • 51

          #19
          Originally posted by Kitten


          I've been doing something similar, but a little more extreme. Letting friends know was definitely the hardest part. I'm lucky that I've got kink friendly people I know, but as it's an unusual fetish, it's always a bit nerve wracking. I've only been met with curiosity so far. I'm so glad I've opened up about it. It makes everything so much easier. Having to hide it sucked.
          It really does suck lol. Due to my living situation bs, I won't have my own bedroom for another couple months, but once I do it's going to be absolutely full of balloons 🥰 Anyone who comes in my room that didn't know before will certainly know then.

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          • Kitten
            Senior Member
            • Jul 2023
            • 170

            #20
            Originally posted by bloonprincess

            It really does suck lol. Due to my living situation bs, I won't have my own bedroom for another couple months, but once I do it's going to be absolutely full of balloons 🥰 Anyone who comes in my room that didn't know before will certainly know then.
            I don't miss those days of having to wait for an opportunity to blow up a balloon. I'm glad you'll be getting your own bedroom soon.

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            • Azurefox
              Member
              • Jan 2023
              • 55

              #21
              Truly happy how this post generated this discussion.

              So. I ended being more comfortable about certain things to family member. Not balloons yet. Maybe not ever. But I want to suggest decorating for Christmas with green and red balloons. I know my Mom loves balloons but ME liking them might end up being a smack in the side of the head. Plus, she has a habit of very insensitive comments when I express something I like. For example: I bought this really adorable Fennekin keychain plushie, and she's like "What's that? What's that for? Who'd you get that for? That MUST be for ****'s young one. There's no way you got that for yourself." It's like I have this image of myself in people's head that I have to fit or I'm not myself.

              I don't want this to sound like I'm looking for therapy or something but I'm sure someone here must have felt something similar in the past. I'm super happy about the responses you all gave my thread and I really appreciate it.

              It really does suck lol. Due to my living situation bs, I won't have my own bedroom for another couple months, but once I do it's going to be absolutely full of balloons 🥰 Anyone who comes in my room that didn't know before will certainly know then.
              Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. YES! I mirror this 100%

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              • bloonprincess
                Balloon Cuddler
                • Oct 2023
                • 51

                #22
                Originally posted by Azurefox
                Truly happy how this post generated this discussion.

                So. I ended being more comfortable about certain things to family member. Not balloons yet. Maybe not ever. But I want to suggest decorating for Christmas with green and red balloons. I know my Mom loves balloons but ME liking them might end up being a smack in the side of the head. Plus, she has a habit of very insensitive comments when I express something I like. For example: I bought this really adorable Fennekin keychain plushie, and she's like "What's that? What's that for? Who'd you get that for? That MUST be for ****'s young one. There's no way you got that for yourself." It's like I have this image of myself in people's head that I have to fit or I'm not myself.

                I don't want this to sound like I'm looking for therapy or something but I'm sure someone here must have felt something similar in the past. I'm super happy about the responses you all gave my thread and I really appreciate it.
                Hey, it's good to get this kind of stuff off your chest! I spent the vast majority of my life trying to hide that I was trans (hope everyone here is chill about that 😅), so I get what it's like to have these expectations put on you that just don't fit you at all. Eventually I got so fed up with hiding behind a mask that I finally began making some changes. For the past year I've been working on removing like 90% of the shame I've built up. I dress however I want now. I finally express my wants and needs. I'm more outgoing. And eventually my friends will know how much of a huge balloon weirdo I am! And I'm kinda excited about that lol. I get to just be me instead of a facade.

                Also. We need to see the Fennekin keychain!! :3

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                • Azurefox
                  Member
                  • Jan 2023
                  • 55

                  #23
                  Originally posted by bloonprincess

                  Hey, it's good to get this kind of stuff off your chest! I spent the vast majority of my life trying to hide that I was trans (hope everyone here is chill about that 😅), so I get what it's like to have these expectations put on you that just don't fit you at all. Eventually I got so fed up with hiding behind a mask that I finally began making some changes. For the past year I've been working on removing like 90% of the shame I've built up. I dress however I want now. I finally express my wants and needs. I'm more outgoing. And eventually my friends will know how much of a huge balloon weirdo I am! And I'm kinda excited about that lol. I get to just be me instead of a facade.

                  Also. We need to see the Fennekin keychain!! :3
                  I think that's completely cool. We need to live our best lives; we only get one chance I think.
                  1000000565.jpg

                  Here ya go!

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                  • bloonprincess
                    Balloon Cuddler
                    • Oct 2023
                    • 51

                    #24
                    Originally posted by Azurefox

                    I think that's completely cool. We need to live our best lives; we only get one chance I think.
                    1000000565.jpg

                    Here ya go!
                    Oh my goodness that is so precious and adorable thank you 🥹

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                    • lucid
                      Senior Member
                      • Sep 2016
                      • 246

                      #25
                      Hey Fox! In my humble opinion I think you're putting way too much stress and pressure on yourself worrying about whether to tell your family members or how your mom may react. In reality none of them even need to know as they will never be a part of your balloon related activities. You know your ma better than anybody probably. If you think she's going to react poorly, she probably will. I know personally I would be mortified if either of my parents started talking about how they get down in the bedroom. Not that I would judge what they're doing specifically. But because they are my parents. I just don't wanna know lol. I have no doubt they feel the same way. If them knowing about your fetish could offer you any benefit whatsoever then maybe it would change things, but in the majority of cases, id imagine it would serve you better to keep your sex life separate from the relationship you have with your folks. For me, i tell my partners and a few friends which we talk about things like this. Some people just don't need to know. Some people don't deserve to know.

                      On a side note, that's a super cool Keychain! And a very artistic and visually appealing picture! You did a phenomenal job with that I must say. Points for creativity.
                      I actually had a Powerpuff Girls keychain for the longest time. My local rave crew would get together and party and watch the show and one of my best female friends from the group got it for me and I loved it. But i would have gotten it anyway because i loved the cartoon as well. My attitude was always if someone didn't like it, they could fight me about it haha. We are who we say we are. No other person has the authority to tell us any different. Just enjoy yourself and as long as you're not hurting anyone else, live any way you see fit. Much love to you friend.

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                      • Azurefox
                        Member
                        • Jan 2023
                        • 55

                        #26
                        Originally posted by lucid
                        Hey Fox! In my humble opinion I think you're putting way too much stress and pressure on yourself worrying about whether to tell your family members or how your mom may react. In reality none of them even need to know as they will never be a part of your balloon related activities. You know your ma better than anybody probably. If you think she's going to react poorly, she probably will. I know personally I would be mortified if either of my parents started talking about how they get down in the bedroom. Not that I would judge what they're doing specifically. But because they are my parents. I just don't wanna know lol. I have no doubt they feel the same way. If them knowing about your fetish could offer you any benefit whatsoever then maybe it would change things, but in the majority of cases, id imagine it would serve you better to keep your sex life separate from the relationship you have with your folks. For me, i tell my partners and a few friends which we talk about things like this. Some people just don't need to know. Some people don't deserve to know.

                        On a side note, that's a super cool Keychain! And a very artistic and visually appealing picture! You did a phenomenal job with that I must say. Points for creativity.
                        I actually had a Powerpuff Girls keychain for the longest time. My local rave crew would get together and party and watch the show and one of my best female friends from the group got it for me and I loved it. But i would have gotten it anyway because i loved the cartoon as well. My attitude was always if someone didn't like it, they could fight me about it haha. We are who we say we are. No other person has the authority to tell us any different. Just enjoy yourself and as long as you're not hurting anyone else, live any way you see fit. Much love to you friend.
                        Hi Lucid, thank you for your reply.

                        There is a bit of a misunderstanding here. I'm not really putting any pressure on myself to let my family know about my fetish. I stated that I don't want them to know about that. I agree with you; I wouldn't want my own mother/father talking about their bedroom pleasures either. The problem I have though is my own Persona, and that, because of that, people think I don't like balloons. What would make me really happy is if people knew that I liked balloons (not in the fetish way) and ideally would say... Give me balloons for my birthday instead of cards for example. I don't need or want them knowing that I get turned on by balloons.

                        They way my mom reacts is a habit. She doesn't mean harm I know but she does it instinctively. Like my keychain for example: her reaction from her POV is probably totally normal. She will see it as out of character for me and just react that way. It hurts me yes, but I need to be able to put myself in other's shoes before screaming murder. It's just a self-rule that I have.

                        I'm also very glad you liked the picture.
                        Last edited by Azurefox; 17-11-2023, 10:24.

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                        • Scooter
                          Senior Member
                          • May 2022
                          • 234

                          #27
                          Hey, Azurefox!

                          I was confused on that part as well, thanks for clearing it up. My advice is just to ease into it and treat these "changes" as not a big deal. Next time you're out with friends and see balloons, talk a bit about how​ you've worked on your fear, and say that even though you're still nervous about and hate the popping, you've found an appreciation for them. Just tell them that you wouldn't mind them getting you balloons for your birthday. Heck, you'd really like it if they did. Be prepared for maybe a little joking around, but I have to imagine your friends would be pretty cool with it. For something like your keychain (really cute pic BTW!), just put it on your bag or whatever.

                          What you shouldn't do is describe it to them as you've done here as you having a persona up until now. The wording of that makes it sound like you're just not the same person that they became friends with, and they may take that a lot worse than you might expect. Make the focus less "Here's my NEW, REAL personality" and more "Here are other layers of my personality I've neglected until now." Remember, you're you. You've always been you. You just want to present a more honest version of yourself. This is advice from someone who struggled with opening up and being honest about himself to others.

                          Regarding your family, THOSE are the people you may find worth it to have a deeper talk with. But that's a maybe, and based on whether YOU think they would respond well to that serious talk or not. If you think your mom would respond well to a "Listen, I understand what you meant with your comment, but could you work on your phrasing?" conversation, you may want to do so. If not, then just try not to pay it much mind.

                          It can be difficult, I know. And even though I'm more open about the things I like now, I'm still not comfortable mentioning anything about balloons to anyone. So don't knock yourself too hard for anything with this, and here's to hoping you get some nice balloons on your next birthday! 😊

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                          • Azurefox
                            Member
                            • Jan 2023
                            • 55

                            #28
                            Originally posted by Scooter
                            Hey, Azurefox!

                            I was confused on that part as well, thanks for clearing it up. My advice is just to ease into it and treat these "changes" as not a big deal. Next time you're out with friends and see balloons, talk a bit about how​ you've worked on your fear, and say that even though you're still nervous about and hate the popping, you've found an appreciation for them. Just tell them that you wouldn't mind them getting you balloons for your birthday. Heck, you'd really like it if they did. Be prepared for maybe a little joking around, but I have to imagine your friends would be pretty cool with it. For something like your keychain (really cute pic BTW!), just put it on your bag or whatever.
                            Thank you! I can totally imagine doing that if the topic comes up. "Hey, I used to be deathly scared of balloons, but I worked on it and now I love them". The problem I think has always been that balloons are not a big thing and I shouldn't force the conversation. I'm still gonna say to My mom though "hey, wanna put up some green and red balloons for Christmas?". My Mom can be kind of insensitive but I'm fortunate in that I know she loves balloons.... or popping them. I have to put down some ground rules there... I kind of know my brother is gonna be like "MINT! let's do it".

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                            • Cockylooner
                              Junior Member
                              • Nov 2023
                              • 4

                              #29
                              Today I faced embarrassment by calling a sex shop and asking about balloon porn of sexy balloons and she told me they had balloons with peckers on them and I told her when I get them there will be a pecker in them lol and then I went to the sex shop and faced her and told her I was the balloon fetish guy and than I bought balloons and left

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                              • celes
                                Junior Member
                                • Nov 2023
                                • 2

                                #30
                                Thank you for all your contributions in this thread so far

                                One thing i'm curious about though is, a few people mentioned that their friends know that they like balloons (without telling them about the fetish). My question is, how did you bring it up? Since I tend to be uncomfortable around balloons in public and am generally not that open of a person, I feel like it would be weird to tell my friends: "Hey, I like balloons! If you want to get me some for my birthday or something, that'd be cool.". The topic of balloons just never came up with them and dropping it out of the blue would make me fear they suspect what's behind this. Also I feel like i couldn't say that just non-chalantly :/
                                Any tips?

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